Pebble?

Not, it's a friggin milestone!

Weixuan is in studio doing work, and will be staying over tonight. Historically ground-breaking event indeed.

Suffocatinggg

Urghhhh Thursday please come faster past fasterrr!!! I need to get this out of the way, over and done withh.

I feel FAB-ulous

Welcome back,

and so bash's over! Didn't win the overall Deadliest Sinner (Mr SDE), but I was awarded Mr FAB! I think I did pretty well! (: Stage presence was not bad, and so was the composure. Hehehe the trick is to screw up your image with a spastic "HELLO!! :D" pose right at the start, so that your self consciousness screws up and you won't give two hoots about image after that.

FYI, FAB does not = fabulous. Our ingenious program directors had decided to break away from mundane titles, to create more interesting sounding ones aligned with the secret sins theme. FAB = Fatally Attractive Body! Deadliest Sinner = Mr/Ms SDE. Then there are Deadliest Catwalk, and Angel-Face awards.

Call me FAB, I won't hold it against you.

Hahahahaha.

Ms FAB 2009/2010

I've a feeling that the judges marked me down, cos I never gave them any attention during the bash. hahahah. No glances, not once. Bash tip #1: Establish eye contact with the judges to build rapport and score points. I'm not sure if they liked my epic male supermodel poses, maybe it's too over the top, but heck I really enjoyed doing them anyway hahahah. :D Seriouslyy damnn fun I really lovee doing retarded stuff on stage, and I think I have quite a knack for it. I'm really glad bash gave me this opportunity to let loose. Amanda was the first to point it out to me after Halloween, she said I like "dressing up", which sounded very wrong, it was then more aptly termed as "alter-ego phenomenon".







It's what drives me to turn into the Prefab fairy, the Halloween demon hunter, and now the bash's Derek Zoolander, 3 times supermodel of the world hahahah. And then there was my post-bash pole-dance, and that's well.. the diva persona. Omg I'd probably have to wait till April for me to use my epic expressions again, during my Latin Nationals. I will blow the judges away Ahahahhahaa.

Here are some photos:M1 and F1 - Ms Deadliest Catwalk, my super nice partner Wei En with the never ending legs.

My harem. Nice.

Mr and Ms FAB! Hot damn.

Epic. The future of SDE swimming.

Our talented dance choreographer cum hairstylist! (:

And this is.... Wtf?! It's a friggin BANNER!

by my group of insanely AWESOME BUDDIES Y'ALL! :D

good ole long time buds yn and yingying (:

and my awesomee 05S78 classmatesss! (:

TO ALL YOU DEAR FRIENDS WHO CAME: Thanks sooooooo muchhhh for coming down!!! I did my best to entertain you guys yeahhh all to make your $16 worthit! And I cannot thank you guys enough your presence and support. They really really meant a lot, you guys are awesome friends, everyone of you. Thank you so much.

So what did I take away from bash?

Geraldine is hot stuff with mind-blowing hair. Butterfac is frigging small not everyone could see my awesome moves. Great new friends, an unforgettable experience, and the rediscovery of old friends. If there's anything to be learned, it'd be that participating in or winning a pageant doesn't change your life. I was probably secretly hoping it would. The feeling of acceptance and popularity you'd experience on stage is euphoric, dope, but ephemeral. It's like smoking weed, when you're on it, reality becomes a blur, purged of sadness and negativity. Everyone loves you, everyone's your friend, your fans. When the smoke snuffs out, reality sinks back in - a quiet world with innumerable acquaintances and less than numerable friends.

But maybe it ain't that bad, to have fewer, but truly sincere, best friends. And that's you reading this.

Thanks

What's this emptiness.

So how do you like..

MY BLOG'S NEW LOOK!!!! :D

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Awesome I'm so happy with it. I changed it to celebrate my blog's 4th year! (: Come to think of it, that's a pretty long time! that I've been stuck with that mundane plain jane as my domain. Add another 2 years from my prev blog and this would be my 6th year blogging! Sure doesn't feel like it.

I wanted something refreshing, easy on the eyes, and soothing, that would make me feel happy, so I chose this wallpaper from one of my favorite Japanese movies! Kafu wo machiwabite (waiting for happiness). Truth is, I have not finished the movie as the plane landed, prematurely, tsk. But it made me feel good enough to like it, and I still cannot find the dvd online or anywhere in Singapore, because it's so obscure. Here's the website.

DO YOU HEAR THE WAVES gently lapping onto the sandy seashore! hahahahaha. I'm damn happy with it, I recorded it off the movie's original website. It's beautifully soothing, with the bright cheery wallpaper, and it looks sweeeet as well! Nice. But if the sound of beautifully soothing waves bugs you as much as discretely overpriced carpark gantrys and ERPs do, then you can turn it off. Simply scroll alllllll the way down to the deep bottom of this blog, and once you're there start searching for this tiny stop button that should be somewhere partially hidden within another square. HAHAHA. Sorry for the inconvenience caused. I will probably repeat this for a few posts.

PLEASEEE DROP A COMMENT ABOUT THE NEW LAYOUT WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT! I'm soooooo excited about sharing my joy with peoplee but VERY SADLY I CAN'T cos this is an esoteric blog that I do not disclose to the world. So pleaseeeeee!!! Make me happy and entertain me for once! considering how many nice video's I've shared with you right. (:

Anyway, had pagent rehearsals yesterday and today, together with the also tiring latin lessons and archi work that has kept me awake till 3-4am the past 3 (plus tonight 4), I am DAMN FRIGGING SHAGGED. To rejuvenate myself I bought 3 dvds :D Tokyo Tower, Virgin Snow, and Rough Cut. It's pretty obvious what kind movies I like. hahaha. Ah Neh if you're reading this, Rough Cut is the movie we're going to watch together, so that we can both psyche up and take each other down after that. Rooftop sparring and grappling ftw.

Since this post is to celebrate my blog, let me tell you a story about it, in case you haven't realised the concept behind it. Enjoy.

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The clouds gather, and soon they begin to blot out the harsh radiant silhouette of the world's sun. Only meek rays diffuse through the canopy of fluffs, into the dusty grey atmosphere below where humans reside, absorbed within the realm of their personal worlds. Vapor congregates, and trickles of water droplets materialize in the sky. Soon, the hustle and bustle of the lively urban district is blanketed by the drowsingly soothing chatter of raindrops pelting upon its concrete shields. Life goes on.

And so, 2010 has silently crept over us (ignoring the fireworks and countdowns), as we transit into Lore of Anskarion Volume 4. It is said that since the fall of men, humans were never born to be enjoy absolute liberty, cursed to be subject to bondage through their life. Everything that rises is bound to fall, and from the ashes there lies only the ascending route of amelioration, only to decline again through the course of life's interminable cycles. Venerable directors of the enigmatic Horlywould circle have envisioned 2012 to be the darkest year of human history, echoing the forecasts of doom scripted upon the artifacts of the ancient Mayan civilization. "The Apocalypse is at hand!" They say. That leaves us with 2 years of human history yet to be written, and we ask, would we live to see volume 5?? "Who gives a shit," our hero brushes off the topic, nonchalantly. He has better things to worry about, like tmr's submission, and how he should pose for Thursday's catwalk segment, and pre-empt questions for the Q&A. Such cool and calm, in the face of civil chaos, compounded by anarchy within the order of nature. We respect that. We have shadowed him through his share of rise and fall, documented in volumes 2 and 3, Exoneration, Manumission, and we endeavor to feed you this epic story as long as we're not overwhelmed by homework.

"Submissions", such a dreadful evil, over looms our hero this very day, a dark time indeed. So, assuming we buy into this apocalypse bullshit, the only pertinent question remains: "would we live to see volume 5?" (which if uneventful, is predicted to last 5 years)

According to the fore mentioned theory of life, after a chapter of darkness, there is only light to be found, in love and happiness, or emancipation from the leashes of architorture. So will we?

Possibly.

To be continued..

"VOLUME 4: Submissions"
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Baygon kills fast

HAHAHAHA you just have to see these videos. They're damnn funny! Made me laugh out in front of my computer. Turn up your volume, cos the music and sound effects are amusingly corny. hahaha. I love the first one.

Firstly! If the beautifully soothing sound of waves rolling onto a sandy seashore bugs you, you can turn it off by scrolling allll the way to the bottom of this screen, whcre you can try to find this small stop button that's partially hidden within another square. hahahahahah. Sorry for the inconvenience caused. Anyway! If you leave it on you won't be able to hear the video. OR! click on the video twice to open it in another tab (:






Arghhhh, taking a break from archi work, submission dateline's tmr, and there's still so much to be done. Think this will be my worst project to date, my creative juices are really stagnant for this one :( I've hit a block.

So anyway, I started googling on Baygon and insecticide since I've been using them (rather frequently) recently. Just yesterday a cockroach flew into my head, not literally but yeah. hahaha. Damn gross.

Sorry for the lack of posts as USUAL, I promise to update soon! I've been really busy and I think I have to drop some commitments, sadly, otherwise I'm going burn up very soon.

AND, HAPPY 2010 everyone!!! even though it's 21 days late! (: Every other blogging friend of mine has already laid down his/her new year resolutions, but I'm kinda short on time today to think of meaningful bombastic ones. Here are some short and sweet ones that I've been thinking of, that I've been consciously trying to enforce:

1. Smile more! As mommy always says, brighten someone's day! I have a naturally angry face, which doesn't do me justice because I'm very rarely pissed off. Unless it has to do with M.IN.D.EF and N ASS..

2. Be more sociable, talk to people! For some reason I've been getting shyer as I grow older, and getting quieter and quieter. What the heck, being reclusive isn't going to get me any friends. I think I do know the rationale behind this symptom, and it's because..

3. I'm too image conscious. Yes I'm well aware of this, but its not easy to change. My best friends have been telling me this since the day they became my best friends. For some reason (that i've not figured out yet) I'm becoming so prim and proper that I'm starting to bore myself. So fuckkk it, I need to loosen up to become my real self, the rigidity is stifling.

4. Yeah, emancipate myself from all these social inhibitions and etiquette rubbisshh! (Y)

5. Get a ear stud, and head home to battle against castigation from my family members. Actually visual diplomacy is the way to go, I just have to find one that's nice enough, that doesn't look too punk or too gay, so that they'd go "hmmm, actually its quite nice".

6. Finish my flower garden drawing, it's tooo nice to be left unfinished.

7. Be nicer to all my friends. Sincerity is the #1 core value.

8. Spend more time with my beloved bicycle.


Anyway, I'm part of the SDE bash! Nobody knows what SDE stands for so once and for all it is School of Design and Environment, which encapsulates Architecture, Real Estate, and Project Facilities Management.

You can visit the fb event page here!
or you can head straight to the pageant page here.

There's a theme for the pageant and it's the 7 Deadly Sins: Envy, Gluttony, Sloth, Wrath, Lust, Greed, Pride. Thankfully, I was assigned Wrath. It totally allows me to strike my favorite pose:

RRRRAARGHH

I'm sorry were you expecting any other pose? hahaha. If you weren't, you're a true friend, but if you WERE, I'm proud of you! Trust me to be innovative. Here's a new signature pose to add to my repertoire:

RRRRAARGHH

hahahaha. Unfortunately, the captions have not changed.

It's quite a fun experience, but it does feel quite awkward in some ways, like how you become subject to everyone's scrutiny online. We all love criticizing pageant participants and no shit now I'm on the receiving end. But whatever la hahah its quite fun. I had my first ever photoshoot, FREE. and I love the dance choreography, by my friends yingmin and weiting. (: Well done min!

Okay that's all i really need to get back to work. I'm surprised I went on for so long.

Seeya! and I appreciate your dropping by! (:

Hello!

Hello friend! Thanks for visiting its nice to see you again.

Sorry for the scarce frequency of updates, Archi has kept me busy with all the submissions, and I've been occupied with dance and sports and still am. Weekends have almost always been saturated with birthday celebs for the INNUMERABLE number of OCT/NOV babies. As of now, I am < 10 hours away from my first paper, and after that I'd be left with my last two papers. My last paper ends next Tuesday! :D

School has been much more enjoyable after submissions have ceased, with exams as the last standing obstacle to total freedomm. ... albeit a shortlived one. It can only last till 11 dec, thanks to friggin reservist for a incontrovertibly INCOMPETENT squadron. So absolutely despise. They need a management overhaul.

Started studying a little lateee. Been playing too much computer games. Next time no more, hahaha. Mugging is actually pretty fun. I really have my wonderful HC friends to thank for nurturing in me this valuable appreciation for the academics. I'm studying PF now which is like basically physics, and surprisingly I'm enjoying it! Only sad thing is that it doesn't necessarily translate to me doing well in it. Urghh, struggling but I'm getting there I think. I have faith in myself.

Speaking of games, SO MANY AWESOME GAMES ARE OUT THIS/NEXT MONTH! Dragon Age, L4D 2, COD modern warfare 2. Walau, exams have to end soon.

I think my sympathetic system has gone a bit cranky. haven't really been feeling much stress for the past.. long time. Not even now when exam's tmr. It had probably stopped working somewhere along the way.

Okay back to structural system analysis. Byeee! If you want to play games let me know!

Lives

To me, it's about happiness and contentment, warmth and friendship, time and love, and the way they're achieved through an intricate concoction of each one or another. It's a delicate process of balance, between wants and needs, the priorities you believe in, and consequently the choices you effect in your partition of time, in concordance to your valuation of all the former. This balance is oh so hard to grasp! Decisions are so hard to make when the mind is in such stateless flux. I can't even identify a general direction, or understand what it is that I really want, or discern if my wants are what I need and whether they are what's best for me.

Time is love, and time is happiness. Time is solace and time is freedom. Time is whatever you want to apply it to, and there are so many things that I desire. How then, if I have not much time to spare for all these that I want, especially when I'm in the prime of my youth? As much as I'm struggling to squeeze out 'personal' time, I'm trying hard as well to incorporate all these into my 'occupied' time, and its not very easy when I'm so unmotivated in what I'm doing now. So far it's the friends that keep me going. I have 0 drive.

So I'm back at square 1, again. It's practicality vs passion. There's the school that's driven by the former, and there's the one that trusts on the latter to sail them through life. I don't know which one I belong to, and I don't really have an in-between choice. Howwww ahhh


Btw, I'm not emo-ing fyi. I am happy. Just very lost. :D / :S

















And.. life is about patience. Good things come to those that persevere. hahahah



To top it all off, in the past month, to date, and in the weeks to come, I have / am /had
1. In NUS jazztitude which I hardly have time for anymore.
2. Been chionging last minute for our team relay which we got 5th when we could have been less lazy and possibly gotten 3rd and RICHH.
3. been practicing for a charity rock concert at smu on Oct
4. Having latin classes
5. and helping out a friend in her school's prom performance in Dec
6. playing dmc4, and now there's grand tourismo for PSP
7. In a DE club which I haven't done anything for.
8. just joined the NUS.SO and went for my first prac on wed.
9. working at the esplanade.
10.going for the SDE halloween!
11. attending all the so many birthdays that happen week after week. Why are so many friends born in oct/nov! it's such a bad time.
12. yet to start on exam preparations

Lets see how I survive. Id have leveled up if I can do all these and still achieve a cap of 3.5 hahaha.

Guess what

I may be switching course!

1. NTU sports science and management
2. NTU accountancy
3. NTU biomedical sciences and TCM
4. NUS biomedical sciences
6. physio

5. stay archi

6. either 1 of the 1-5, then dentistry
7. either 1 of the 1-5, then medicine

8. either 1 of the above, then Duke-NUS postgrad med / NTU medicine 2012?

9. Aussieland, sports sciences / nutrition / dietitics

So. What's it gonna be? Shoot me someone. Hammer me while I'm still stateless before I do something and possibly regret.

Sigh

Why.

Why does it always turn out this way?

When will I ever succeed?

Why is easy never easy enough.

Am I just not gay enough.

Why is Ryu gayer.

Are keyboard users doomed to failure,

Is an analogue gamepad the pivotal tool for success?

Why.

Reasons

What do I want?

What am I looking for

What do I lack

What do i need?

What do I want in life

Why does this void subsist

Why must I find a reason

Why cant I identify that reason?

Am I being realistic?

Are my perceptions grounded in reality?


Do I think too much

Happiness

Recess week started, and then recess week is over. What the heck. Recess week should be weeks, not week.

I'm supposed to be doing research now, but I ended up doing everything else hahaha. Here are things I found.


http://www.thehappinessshow.com/HappiestCountries.htm

Singapore is 23rd on the list, the first asian country. Sure not? :/ Taiwan is next at 31, and then Japan at 39.
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http://abcnews.go.com/2020/story?id=4097264&page=1

Sureee not?
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http://blog.miragestudio7.com/2005/11/architects-lawyers-and-prostitutes/

Whenever you see the word “Client” in something to do with building, you know there just has to be an architect involved because no one else in the building game ever refers to anyone as “clients.” It is such a strange word, isn’t it? In a shop you are a customer, on a train you are a passenger, in a hospital you are a patient, in a class you are a student, in the economy at large you’d be a consumer. But client? The only people who have clients are lawyers, architects and prostitutes, all of whom have to live with the reputation that they are simply out to screw you. Only the prostitute is honest about it.”

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http://www.careerbuilder.co.uk/Article/CB-47-Job-Search-UKs-20-Happiest-Jobs/?ArticleID=47&cbRecursionCnt=1&cbsid=2af32410070e41ef9f683318aa7bdba3-307338201-w2-6&ns_siteid=ns_us_g_happiest_jobs

http://www.virginmedia.com/jobs/features/ukshappiestprofessions.php

Hahahah hairdressers are the happiest people. Switch course already lar.
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http://current.com/1pepm4c

This one claims architects are #4 on the happiest jobs list.

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http://arbitat.com/discussion/017/index.htm

UK Architects Unhappy, US Architects Dying Off
Posted by JoeVare, 15 April 2005

According to City & Guilds (a London based vocational institute), you're (probably) not the only unhappy architect. In their 2004 Happiness Index, Architects were the 29th and least happy profession, behind such professions as butchers, bankers and civil servants. If you're thinking of a career switch, the whole index is:

#01 - Hairdressers - Perentage that are "Very Happy": 40
#02 - Clergy - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 24
#03 - Chefs/cooks - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 23
#04 - Beauticians - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 22
#05 - Plumbers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 20
#06 - Mechanics - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 20
#07 - Builders - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 20
#08 - Electricians - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#09 - Florists - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#10 - Fitness Instructors - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#11 - Care Assistants - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#12 - Health care professionals - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 17
#13 - Media - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 16
#14 - Chartered engineers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 15
#15 - Pharmacists - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 15
#16 - Scientists/R&D - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 15
#17 - Butchers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 14
#18 - DJs - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 13
#19 - Interior designers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 9
#20 - Travel Agents - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 9
#21 - Teachers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 8
#22 - Bankers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 8
#23 - Accountants - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 7
#24 - IT Specialists - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 5
#25 - Lawyers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 5
#26 - Secretaries - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 5
#27 - Estate Agents - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 4
#28 - Civil Servants - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 3
#29 - Architects - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 2

Hairdresser woooo..

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http://www.time.com/time/2007/america_numbers/job.html

This one provides a very comprehensive ranking list.



Argh I don't know why I'm reading these. I don't survive well in reality.

I'm watching Ouran High sch host club, Big Bang theory, playing 3-4 games, training for cycling, swimming, and dancing, how to find time for studies seriously?