It's almost the same old routine everyday in my dull coloured camp, with nothing much to look forward to, except maybe like friday which is book out day. Book out already i don't know what to do either, cos i'm like cut off from the world, outdated and apathetic with regards to news and politics, and i don't know what happened to my social circle either. I think it'd really help if i forced myself to start linking up with friends and all, but i feel so dead i just stone everyday. Not that my army mates are boring, but all the discipline and peer-appraisal stuff just cause me to be stuck up somewhere, and the whole atmosphere is so rigid and stifling that i just can't let my hair down. My sense of self-discipline is just like turned on 24/7 and i can't switch it off. Another thing is that the guys here are so cliquey, and ive got difficulty dissolving or penetrating them.
On a brighter note, I'm not out of course yet, haha. Our basic phase ends next week, and we just got our weapons posting next week. I think i'm blessed that i was posted to my weapon of choice, the I-hawk, which is the least physically demanding of the 3 weapons that we can be posted to, which means my chances of staying on course are further increased. =) It's a divine decision more than mere chance.
Anyway i got so bored and all in lectures that i've been daydreaming alot. Subsequently, i started doodling, and to my amazement my drawing skills somehow improved by like damn alot. It's a huge difference as compared to what i used to draw before, and like wa i got really excited. It like jump started my interest in drawing again. I think it's due to influence from all the anime i've been watching every weekend when i book out, cos i'm quite a visual learner after all. Other then drawing ive just been playing basslines to random songs on my buddy's guitar, had some significant improvements too. So.. like yar okay lar there has been some in-camp-productivity.
Here are the main things that i have learnt from my recent 5 weeks of training in basic phase, in order of date produced:
random doodle
random, i like the flower
pretty!
Suiseiseki
Shinku - Rozen Maiden. I kept having problems drawing nose and mouth so im leaving it out first.
Suiseiseki!
Rukia-san! she has some neck problem
Random. A girl carrying flowers and violin case
The guy was a failure, but i absolutely love the girl =) Incomplete though
Random violinist. got trouble with proportion
I had too much time in hand, so i mass spammed armour. Super pumped up. haha. A pity the pic can't get any bigger, i really did intricate detailing. Re-drew some parts of it many times, but it's still problematic so i gave up.
My friend louis asked me to draw him a pic of a guy on in trench coat sitting by the beach with rocks on a low wall with a sandwich by his side. As it progressed i drew him putting his foot on the wall, he didnt like it cos too beng, but i thought it looked great so i decided to abandon his original order and draw my own stuff. Changed the low wall to a bench, and added in a gun. It ended up like this, and i like it =). Now he's a hitman instead of some loner.
I redrew another one for him. Here's the loner, the sea and the rocks, but the sandwich hasn't arrived yet. Incomplete
Desu~ =) Incomplete
K gotta pack for camp soon, that's all until i draw more.
Bleh life is a mess. Reality is bad, and you won't understand it.
I wish for a normal family and a more normal life.
I daydream to enter utopia,
I doodle to visualize it,
I watch anime to be absorbed into their fantasy worlds.
Everything seems to be centered around escapism.
Need to find a direction in life
