The Hectic Airwing Paradox

Friends always tell me to move on,


and like how there are many fishes in the sea.


but problem is hc was like land,


and airforce is like sky.


how to find a partner to go social night?






Anyway i can start thinking about social night because now i can stay in course long enough to see it happen and be part of it as well. I've been cleared for IPPT! haha

Can consider myself blessed, cos my NUH physio appt was like 1 day before the appt i was supposed to have with the SAFTI doc, who was the one deciding if i can do my ippt or not. Went for physio session, asked the guy if he could write a letter to allow me to do. He did some assessments, and was still reluctant to let me do. But when i told him that i used to be doing like xx number of pullups he decided to let me try!

So for the first time since the injury i broke out of my status and tried doing pullups, undergrip method lar. i did 3, but had to be super controlled and slow. He asked if there was any pain, there wasn't. and so.. yay clearance! And the physiotherapist himself was an officer from ADA himself, the exact same vocation i'd be going to! He operates the RBS system. How conincidental can it get.

Anyway for now i disallowed from playing racquet sports, bowl, break, swim, getting tekan, doing pullups, SOC, or riding offroad. Pretty sad. And the stubborn backache doesnt want to go away. But at least i'm left with computer and console games. haha. Just bought FEAR First Encounter Assault Recon. pretty freaky but it's fun the game physics are awesome and AI smarter den some real life players. Gonna get xbox 360 too! Just waiting for the Elite to be launched.




Anyway someone just gave us a bike. like whoa a beauty with like Campagnolo Centaur conponents. The person who invented the li.quid armor. But for certain reasons we feel that we have to return it back. All the anticipation and euphoria and plans for nothing. haha. Anti climax. Quite good in a way too though, i wont have to make the choice between switching over to the new frame or sticking with my nice old one.

Beautiful, just that the handlebar grip tape colour is aweful looking.

Airwing life getting quite hectic ( in airforce standards ). Unbelievable but yeah.. haha. It's like exams period, had one last friday and having one next monday. with damn alot of chapters to study. It's like i haven't watched the 9pm drama serial for the pass week already! hahaha. Got quite some time before the test but thing is that we aren't allowed to bring our precis home to study, so effectively we cant study nuts. And the tests are like not easy lar wa lau. Quite hard. I'm surprised army men can come up with challenging questions. hahah. Anyway i dont know how i fared. All i know is that i passed ( >50 ) and that means no confinement and that's all that we all care about hahah.

We have no soc, but we have seoc, which started not long ago. I'd never get a chance to try it, cos i've still got like 40 something days of status left. haha. Had navigation exercise today, my group not the best but still quite effective. We only horlan for awhile but got back on track. Bashing our way through the vines and spikey scrubs were fun, as well as crossing little streams without sinking into the sand or getting our boots stuck in the wet mud. Our boots just disappears all the way in. It's worse for those carrying the signal sets, they sink more. Bumped into Jasmine after i completed navex, haha how coincidental. Was really nice seeing her, it's been some time. A pity we weren't wearing our cool blue no.3s, haha. People such as her family actually go there to hike, while we are like stuck inside there trying as hard as we can to find checkpoints and go home. Navexes are really quite fun.

Time flies really fast in ocs. It's been about 9 week already, a period longer than that spent in bmt, and yet it feels 10X shorter. bmt life just sucks big time haha. I'm really having fun here.

That's it for now as you can see i'm doing fine here. Thanks for those who have shown concern and all ie Samuel Tham, matheus. All appreciated man.

Anyway, kinda miss the times building random chair towers in class, or the fight sessions in between.

It's getting really hard to find people who can do this kinda shit with you.

We are the rare people. haha. :)

Marcus Burghardt vs Dog. Stage-9

Ouwww poor bike! hahah

Medical checkup

Just came back from NUH. Booked out today for appointment, had much excess time, so i went back to hc to collect my yearbook before appt, and now im home to relax before booking back in soon.

Nice to see the juniors back in school =). Met Mrs Ang and Ms Soh, couldn't find the rest. Should visit another day.


As for the med checkup, i was awarded 2 months of light duty. If you don't know what light duty for two months means, it can be simply translated to 3 words - Out Of Course/ Out Of Training. Like fuck.


Seems like my fight to stay on course has only just began. Even so, it already seems impossible. Efforts futile. Officership unattainable. Only thing I can do now is to grind my brains and come out with feasible ideas and things to say that can help me negotiate myself back into course. I'm in Airwing anyway, and could probably survive through 2 months, since there aren't any tough physical training till like 10 weeks away? There aren't even any SOCs for me to deal with, so logically I shouldn't face any difficulty at all. I'm excused all upper limbs, hence Im hoping to get a deal whereby I can be exempted from everything except running, all the way until my IPPT which is on the 6th week. If i can still get a gold or silver w/o any dislocations along the way, then i should really be allowed to stay. But if i cant, or sustain any further dislocations in my whole service term, den i would be more willing to leave.


Argh help, this isn't gonna be easy. I can't do this by myself.


Help me to smile in the face of adversity, that i may understand the fact that you already know my future, and that you have said that it is good. Help me to understand that nomatter what your favour always shines upon me, and I will be victorious no matter what at the end of the day. It's all by your word, and I believe you. Not by my faith but by yours Jesus.

You have always lived up to your word. Time and time again i've screwed up but nomatter what you've always brought me hope and given me the best. The context has changed but ultimately it's the same old situation again. You brought me into OCS, and now that i'm injured, won't you pull me through again?

Even if i dont stay i know that you have it all planned out for me, but it's not something that I wil contemplate about at this moment. You said that you would give me the desires of my heart, and now that desire is to be commissioned. And i claim your word for that.

Guide me as I speak, that i may be able to say and do the right things at the right times. Help me to negotiate. Help me to let go, and free my mind of worries. The battle is yours, not mine.

You do not have shoulder or back injuries, and as you are so am I in this world.


I don't think i will hide the report, id probably bring it right up to the medical review board, and trust that His favor will see me through.



"My honor and life both sprang from one, take my honor and my life is done" - W. Shakespear


protect my pride, it is something you gave me.


Argh damn stressed. Let me smile.


In Jesus' name, Amen

Quick refresh

I'm home! after 6 days in OCS. haha. it's supposed to be a 3 week confinement, but i got to book out yesterday because i was sent to hospital for a dislocated shoulder.

In the morning there was a 5k run, and i was chionging with my plt friend kiap yong who also from hcjc. There was a left turn that was narrow and in the forest, and naturally we tended to keep close to curve. BUt, the curve was like subtly sloping to the left, which made it really to balance, and kiapyong lost balance and jumped off down to the bushes on the left. I was wondering how he could fall off when i started to lose balance myself. I tripped on the path and fell forwards, and used both my arms to breakfall. My right shoulder was already weak and so the huge impact threw it out of place. Ouch. This is the first time my shoulder came off completely, it totally sucks.

Kiap yong brought an instructor to me, who lead me to walk the remaining path all the way back to wingline, where the safety rover was supposed to be but was not because another wing coped our rover. Rover finally came and drove me to SAFTI med center, but it was not open and after some deliberation they finally decided mine was quite bad and sent me to Pasir Lebar camp med center in an ambulance. All the bumps and humps all around the camps really killed my arm. At PLC med center, the waiting continued... thanks to all the procedures and processing that they had to do. After a long wait the doc was ready and asked me in. I was a quarter dead so he injected some pain killers and Trieed to put back my arm, pulling and all. That took away another half of my life. The pain you wont understand, haha, as a guy i was screaming and crying like mad. And so, they sent a 3/4 dead me in ambulance to NUH, and of course through all the road humps again.

After my arm had been hanging on my muscles and ligaments for about 2 hours, we finally alighted at NUH. Was wheeled into emergency, where did some procedures and waiting. There was a form that required me to rate how much pain i was upon 10, i rated 9.3. Finally put on bed, and the doc, seeing that i was 1/5 life left, put me to sleep. That was about 1030, 2hours plus past the fall haha. They put oxygen tubes in my nose, a plug on my arm and some funky plugs around my body. I woke up around 230 and walaa all was fine my arm was put on a sling and my shoulder was back in place. A happy ending =)

Terribly painful but it was quite an experience, haha. and i went home with the funky round plug things on my body as souvenirs.

Arm still hurts now got to go back someday for checkup. Hope things turn out fine, Jesus watches over me anyway :)





OCS feels really different from bmt. For one at least we have some pride with us, and that provides us with some motivation. The campus is really nice too! nice bunks, and i like the shower place. Cosy place, makes you not feel like getting off the bed every morning. Maybe that's a form of mental torture hahaha, kidding. Training is fine so far, but we do running everyday, sometimes twice a day. I love running, and it feels like i just joined a cross country team or something. Oh circuit trainings rock too haha. Another good thing is that we do our exercises on concrete ground or tracks, unlike bmt where we do on barren fields which turn to mud everytime we perspire. Oh yeah the food is good, and the weather is much better than tekong, which is so much hotter than mainland .Got many ppl i know too! Kevin Seah and Kenneth foo from acsi =). and there are quite alot of tchs people, weilun hongkai kiapyong. PS hongkai thinks pamela is very cute.





Ahh. civilian life, i really miss it. Somehow in camp i seem to be missing every single thing, NS makes me treasure everything outside of it even more. I miss my art buddies, the fun times staying up in school till midnight finishing up our art projects, us doing retarded stuff and childish games in school. our 8250s. Insulting each other's artwork.

Miss my classmates, our sec 3 trip to chiang mai, our 2005 class chalet, our rubberband/cardboard wars in class, pushing each other off the amphi ledge. haha. Oh yeah our fun water spurting lab sessions, and we sure had fun poisoning yijun's distilled water thing hahaha. Still remember throwing paper aeroplanes out of the window to the cca block too. Sec school was probably the most carefree and enjoyable time of my life.

The prefects, our patrols, all our tekan camps, the cheering sessions, our crap, our dances, our rehearsals at fish's house, lessons at Les's place. our dumb gay videos at suntec. The nice boardroom, the cockroaches, the big long cuddly snake, the classroom raids. Great times.

My hc friends, my great study mates, the warm yet foreign kinda atmosphere. The studying together, the bio notes, the plant repro notes. The double bass, the ensemble, playing in VCH, the band, the yumin thing haha. The great random hi-bye friends. Caring and concerned schoolmates, the classmates who have so supported me through the 2 years. All the eye candies who brightened up my days. Project work, our outstanding HI154, Our kickass video. The class band, the chinese songs. No Man's Land band and our band auditions. The abel darren john wx band during the pre-enlistee days.

The sailors, my seniors, my brother, our post-training warcraft sessions, our beach soccer at the old europa sea sports club. Pulling boats, the storms, the team, Timothy lim, uncle tony. The jasmine thing was kinda exciting too. haha. Hmm, the skipping stones..




But i wont be a sad boy anymore, departures are just frequent passings in life. So that's it. im gonna laze around till i book in at night.




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