Hello!

Hello friend! Thanks for visiting its nice to see you again.

Sorry for the scarce frequency of updates, Archi has kept me busy with all the submissions, and I've been occupied with dance and sports and still am. Weekends have almost always been saturated with birthday celebs for the INNUMERABLE number of OCT/NOV babies. As of now, I am < 10 hours away from my first paper, and after that I'd be left with my last two papers. My last paper ends next Tuesday! :D

School has been much more enjoyable after submissions have ceased, with exams as the last standing obstacle to total freedomm. ... albeit a shortlived one. It can only last till 11 dec, thanks to friggin reservist for a incontrovertibly INCOMPETENT squadron. So absolutely despise. They need a management overhaul.

Started studying a little lateee. Been playing too much computer games. Next time no more, hahaha. Mugging is actually pretty fun. I really have my wonderful HC friends to thank for nurturing in me this valuable appreciation for the academics. I'm studying PF now which is like basically physics, and surprisingly I'm enjoying it! Only sad thing is that it doesn't necessarily translate to me doing well in it. Urghh, struggling but I'm getting there I think. I have faith in myself.

Speaking of games, SO MANY AWESOME GAMES ARE OUT THIS/NEXT MONTH! Dragon Age, L4D 2, COD modern warfare 2. Walau, exams have to end soon.

I think my sympathetic system has gone a bit cranky. haven't really been feeling much stress for the past.. long time. Not even now when exam's tmr. It had probably stopped working somewhere along the way.

Okay back to structural system analysis. Byeee! If you want to play games let me know!

Lives

To me, it's about happiness and contentment, warmth and friendship, time and love, and the way they're achieved through an intricate concoction of each one or another. It's a delicate process of balance, between wants and needs, the priorities you believe in, and consequently the choices you effect in your partition of time, in concordance to your valuation of all the former. This balance is oh so hard to grasp! Decisions are so hard to make when the mind is in such stateless flux. I can't even identify a general direction, or understand what it is that I really want, or discern if my wants are what I need and whether they are what's best for me.

Time is love, and time is happiness. Time is solace and time is freedom. Time is whatever you want to apply it to, and there are so many things that I desire. How then, if I have not much time to spare for all these that I want, especially when I'm in the prime of my youth? As much as I'm struggling to squeeze out 'personal' time, I'm trying hard as well to incorporate all these into my 'occupied' time, and its not very easy when I'm so unmotivated in what I'm doing now. So far it's the friends that keep me going. I have 0 drive.

So I'm back at square 1, again. It's practicality vs passion. There's the school that's driven by the former, and there's the one that trusts on the latter to sail them through life. I don't know which one I belong to, and I don't really have an in-between choice. Howwww ahhh


Btw, I'm not emo-ing fyi. I am happy. Just very lost. :D / :S

















And.. life is about patience. Good things come to those that persevere. hahahah



To top it all off, in the past month, to date, and in the weeks to come, I have / am /had
1. In NUS jazztitude which I hardly have time for anymore.
2. Been chionging last minute for our team relay which we got 5th when we could have been less lazy and possibly gotten 3rd and RICHH.
3. been practicing for a charity rock concert at smu on Oct
4. Having latin classes
5. and helping out a friend in her school's prom performance in Dec
6. playing dmc4, and now there's grand tourismo for PSP
7. In a DE club which I haven't done anything for.
8. just joined the NUS.SO and went for my first prac on wed.
9. working at the esplanade.
10.going for the SDE halloween!
11. attending all the so many birthdays that happen week after week. Why are so many friends born in oct/nov! it's such a bad time.
12. yet to start on exam preparations

Lets see how I survive. Id have leveled up if I can do all these and still achieve a cap of 3.5 hahaha.

Guess what

I may be switching course!

1. NTU sports science and management
2. NTU accountancy
3. NTU biomedical sciences and TCM
4. NUS biomedical sciences
6. physio

5. stay archi

6. either 1 of the 1-5, then dentistry
7. either 1 of the 1-5, then medicine

8. either 1 of the above, then Duke-NUS postgrad med / NTU medicine 2012?

9. Aussieland, sports sciences / nutrition / dietitics

So. What's it gonna be? Shoot me someone. Hammer me while I'm still stateless before I do something and possibly regret.

Sigh

Why.

Why does it always turn out this way?

When will I ever succeed?

Why is easy never easy enough.

Am I just not gay enough.

Why is Ryu gayer.

Are keyboard users doomed to failure,

Is an analogue gamepad the pivotal tool for success?

Why.

Reasons

What do I want?

What am I looking for

What do I lack

What do i need?

What do I want in life

Why does this void subsist

Why must I find a reason

Why cant I identify that reason?

Am I being realistic?

Are my perceptions grounded in reality?


Do I think too much

Happiness

Recess week started, and then recess week is over. What the heck. Recess week should be weeks, not week.

I'm supposed to be doing research now, but I ended up doing everything else hahaha. Here are things I found.


http://www.thehappinessshow.com/HappiestCountries.htm

Singapore is 23rd on the list, the first asian country. Sure not? :/ Taiwan is next at 31, and then Japan at 39.
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http://abcnews.go.com/2020/story?id=4097264&page=1

Sureee not?
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http://blog.miragestudio7.com/2005/11/architects-lawyers-and-prostitutes/

Whenever you see the word “Client” in something to do with building, you know there just has to be an architect involved because no one else in the building game ever refers to anyone as “clients.” It is such a strange word, isn’t it? In a shop you are a customer, on a train you are a passenger, in a hospital you are a patient, in a class you are a student, in the economy at large you’d be a consumer. But client? The only people who have clients are lawyers, architects and prostitutes, all of whom have to live with the reputation that they are simply out to screw you. Only the prostitute is honest about it.”

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http://www.careerbuilder.co.uk/Article/CB-47-Job-Search-UKs-20-Happiest-Jobs/?ArticleID=47&cbRecursionCnt=1&cbsid=2af32410070e41ef9f683318aa7bdba3-307338201-w2-6&ns_siteid=ns_us_g_happiest_jobs

http://www.virginmedia.com/jobs/features/ukshappiestprofessions.php

Hahahah hairdressers are the happiest people. Switch course already lar.
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http://current.com/1pepm4c

This one claims architects are #4 on the happiest jobs list.

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http://arbitat.com/discussion/017/index.htm

UK Architects Unhappy, US Architects Dying Off
Posted by JoeVare, 15 April 2005

According to City & Guilds (a London based vocational institute), you're (probably) not the only unhappy architect. In their 2004 Happiness Index, Architects were the 29th and least happy profession, behind such professions as butchers, bankers and civil servants. If you're thinking of a career switch, the whole index is:

#01 - Hairdressers - Perentage that are "Very Happy": 40
#02 - Clergy - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 24
#03 - Chefs/cooks - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 23
#04 - Beauticians - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 22
#05 - Plumbers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 20
#06 - Mechanics - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 20
#07 - Builders - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 20
#08 - Electricians - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#09 - Florists - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#10 - Fitness Instructors - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#11 - Care Assistants - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 18
#12 - Health care professionals - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 17
#13 - Media - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 16
#14 - Chartered engineers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 15
#15 - Pharmacists - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 15
#16 - Scientists/R&D - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 15
#17 - Butchers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 14
#18 - DJs - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 13
#19 - Interior designers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 9
#20 - Travel Agents - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 9
#21 - Teachers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 8
#22 - Bankers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 8
#23 - Accountants - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 7
#24 - IT Specialists - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 5
#25 - Lawyers - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 5
#26 - Secretaries - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 5
#27 - Estate Agents - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 4
#28 - Civil Servants - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 3
#29 - Architects - Percentage that are "Very Happy": 2

Hairdresser woooo..

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http://www.time.com/time/2007/america_numbers/job.html

This one provides a very comprehensive ranking list.



Argh I don't know why I'm reading these. I don't survive well in reality.

I'm watching Ouran High sch host club, Big Bang theory, playing 3-4 games, training for cycling, swimming, and dancing, how to find time for studies seriously?

Sneaks!

WOOOO Recess weekk NAISEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (: (: (: (: (:

GO cycling train for quadrathlon cuiiiiiiiiiii NOT NAISEEEEEEEEEEEE :C :C :C :C :C

Homework pile aplenty neverdo procrastinate somuch to do NOT NICEEEEEEEEEEE

EveryDay go out play play see friends catchup many NICEEEEEEEEEE C: C: C:

Jam jam prep up charity gig performance month october nextt Niceeeeeeeeeeeeee

Play much games pc play games psp devilmay cry4prototype plantsvszombies RA3 LINKS2001 L4d Dota Dissidia NiCEEEEEEEEEE.

Catchup more friends and more friends meeting NICEEEEEEEEEEEE.



Somes small sneak peek peek preview below nice, nice? NICEEeeeeeeeeeeee

I'd make it come to life

The empty jar and 2 cups of coffee

My mom sent me this email, so I thought I'd post it here for my fellow overwhelmed friends. hahaha.

Smileee. don't forsake your happiness, and don't forget your friends (:

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When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle, When 24 Hours in a day is not enough, Remember the story of the empty jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students, If the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.

He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full.. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar..
Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table and
poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty
space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - God, family, children, health,
friends, and favorite passions – things that if everything else was lost
and only they remained, Your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and
car. The sand is everything else -- The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued, 'there is no room
for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never
have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee
represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a cup of coffee with a friend.'

:D

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no need punching bag

I received a letter today, this is what it read:


"Dear Mr Ang

Congratulations! The University Admissions Selection Committee has approved your application for admission to the Na.nya.ng Tec.h.nological Univ.er.sity (NT.U) to read the following programme in academic year 2009-10, which commences on 11 August 2009:

Spo.rts Scie.nc.e & Man.agement
(First Year)

bla"


I was like..

wooooooo (insert imagination here)


Thank God (:

GIve me a punching bag

Damnnnn sadddddddddddddddd I screwed up my NTU sport science interview.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

URGHHHH so flustered I can kill

WALAUUUUUUUUUUUU. Why must some bugger call me twice in the interviewwwwwwwwwww. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY didn't I remember to turn off my phone.

I COULD HAVE GIVEN BETTER ANSWERS. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHY SO NERVOUS

God bless me.

Dissonance

Rah the capriciousness of the weather is getting on my nerves. The weather was oh-so-perfect with the sun radiantly shining yesterday.. then it just has to rain this morning after I got so psyched up about going cycling today in the would-be-dried-up trails in bukit timah forest. What a bummer. Should have dragged my friends to some outdoor activity instead of bowling.

Visited a polyclinic today for my cough+phlegm which has persisted for more than a week now. It got better for awhile with medication but yesterday all the soreness and yellowish-green phelgm returned again :/ I probably should follow the doc's advise of "no strenuous activity for now" but I can't imagine a day without sports, haha not when I'm sooooo eager to get back in shape. I sooo badly miss/desire/crave the form I had when I was like 15/16! It's the kind of 'invincible-nothing-can-tire-me-out-feeling' that totally rocks your socks off. Resting just feels like a waste of time I'd run swim cycle badminton all in one day if my body permits hahaha sorry my logic short-circuited somewhere.




Anyway, allow me to start on a gloomy topic. I allowed myself to wander off into (a nowadays super rare) emo-mood after dinner today. I read some blog posts and started doing some retrospection.

At first all I thought was "man my english sucks now, and I barely have any intellect left, I should really start reading", and then the emo streak began. - My thoughts went into pandemonium, my countenance furrowed I felt oppressed my whole world disconcerted and my heart felt bitter as though it was eating itself up from the inside and I so wanted to stab it out. So there you go doesn't sound like a very healthy thing to do, not when I've been healthily cheerful for a long long time now. It left me feeling crappy after that. Since I've been there done that I might as well share about it, and I could use some advice and encouragement. Here were my thoughts:


I've made stupid mistakes which I still feel bitter about, and made decisions which I still regret or feel uncertain about. I'm still bugged by certain major "what-if"s and wonder if life could be happier had I made different choices. Circumstances change which affect the state of my family and financial well-being, which I too feel very bitter about. Why us? Why this? Life could have been so much better, if only...

If only I could accept life as it is, and thank God for what I have today. If only I could trust that God has my life in His hand, and that everything is perfectly planned out for me. I should, and have been trying to. Somehow it isn't that easy. I need more of God in my life, and I need more influence from christian friends around me. I haven't really been in a strong christian environment ever since I left acsi, and I really miss it - the prayer sessions, the blessings, and even the morning devotions and monday Chapel sessions. I should really join a cell group. How?


I made 3 resolutions to my friends after O levels, one of which was "I would always be the same weixuan, the loyal friend you've always known". I think I've managed to stick to it to a certain extent - outwardly. But internally, I haven't, and I don't think it's achievable anymore. I realized that what I had was naivety, which was what made life so simple, carefree. And then I lost it, and everything becomes perplexed, uncertain. Life turns into a calculated and cautious affair. I conclude that "being the same" is an impossible feat. I used to be motivated by the school values "scholar, officer, gentleman", and took great pride in trying to live up to. Now my ideals seem to be blurred and I don't exactly have values which I strive to maintain. I need an identity which i can be proud of.

My character feels like quite a mess, I've tried my best to sort it out but now I think it's kinda beyond me, just as it's futile trying to become someone that I can't become anymore. All these conscious efforts are making me feel as though I'm not exactly the real me anymore, or rather what is the real me now? It's just too artificial. I can only pray that God helps me regain my values and improve my character. speaking of which, I haven't prayed for a long time.



I think I'm too much a product of self-effort. I'm trying too hard to change myself, all the retrospection and metacognition are but means of self-correction. I just realized how out of touch I am with Christ, and I should really find out what I can do about it before I forget about it and 'move on with life'. I really need help. I need to involve God in my life again.



So there.. It sucks to be thinking, I was perfectly happy before I started on this, and I should keep it that way. I will never enter emo-mode again, willingly or unwillingly, as much as I can help it. Doesn't feel like a normal healthy thing to do. It's a weakness, an abnormality. I'd probably delete this post in a few days.
I just prayed, and I actually feel better. nice

Update!

Well well, I don't really to have much to say. Life is just too structureless and spontaneous for me to describe what I've been doing. hahah. It's perfect! Just the way I like it, except that time could be more well spent had I done some planning. I think I'd start using a calendar soon.

Trying to fill up my life with as many courses as I can. It's the self-investment phase! If you have an idea of what I can do with so much free time, or any part-time job that offers >7 per hour, please let me know! (:

The hair is back! and the fitness too, slowly but surely. hurray.

Recently I've caught myself smiling to myself pretty often too. Not related to retardation, thanks. They're thoughts of bliss. (: Could be attributed to certain someone. Haven't gotten this kinda feeling for the longest time, almost 6 years at least.



Okay time to think of what I should do for the rest of the day.

Take care friend, and thanks for visiting!



Oh btw, Taylor Swift is damnnn prettyy. phwoa! You should check out Love Story.
and it's the only one worth watching actually.

Enjoy (:

So.. how was NS for you?

It was a TERRIBLE EXPERIENCE, AT LEAST I GOT A FEEL OF WORKING UNDER INCOMPETENT MANAGEMENT.

WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
ORD LOHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

YEAHHHH I'VE GOT MY PINK CARD YOU CAN'T TOUCH ME NOW HAAAHAHAHAHA.

NOO MORE INCOMING CALL PHOBIA!! WOOOOOOOO

Just let us ORD

This week,

I failed an exam
got confined
got scammed of $250
and activated at 1am the same night
overworked till 5pm the next day
had no sleep
almost charged for disregarding orders
for not staying in during confinement.
signed two more extras
on cny 1st and 2nd day,
which also happens to be
my brothers birthday and
my father's death anniversary.
Will be charged upon next mistake big or small,
with more to come.

Brilliant.

Can't wait for the time to come, where I can happily look back and say:
"terrible experience, at least I got a feel of working under incompetent management"

Happy 2009!

Happy 2009 everyone! (: May it be a brighter and cheerier year for you! May ORD come sooner for those of us still stuck in misery!

This was done in a rush, so never mind the sloppiness. Expect to see more features of these two! I'm coming up with a 3rd, still deciding on what style she should get.

That's it for now, take care! and God bless! (: