HI

"The most heartbreaking part of a breakup is that moment when you realize that all the dreams you had, all those visions you had being with this person disappears. Everything after that moment is moving on."

- Taylor Swift


Never been through one, but I guess its still relate-able with my pseudo-incidences, hahah. But break-ups probably hurt 10x more. Not keen to experience one.

its 6am and I realized I haven't updated this page in like forever. And I'm still doing my archi work no sleep as usual. Sorry for the lack of updates dear friends! Lazy to type long posts.

I've been tweeting though it's more on-the-fly-ish hahah you could follow my daily epiphanies at www.twitter.com/nauxx.

To update you, life is... Well I don't know. Its too assorted an experience for me to pin down in a nutshell haha. Good I guess.

There has been a girl (I know you're not surprised, TSK), but to no end as usual. Open-ended rather, continuation possible, just not now. Don't ask haha it's complicated. Really.

I think God doesn't think I'm ready for relationships or something, possibly because he wants me to focus and get my church priorities right first, which I am starting to sort out. But I trust He has a very pleasant surprise in store somewhere right. Whoever you are, you must be somewhere in this world, I just pray that you be blessed with health, sleep (for good complexion), and Godly wisdom.

Actually I'd also like to pray that you love your parents, learn to play some instruments, learn to sing well, maybe grade 5 ballet, and maybe leave long hair before I meet you.

Before you judge me for being superficial and picky, I'm just kidding of course. hahaha.

Actually no maybe I'm not. I can pray for anything right. But seriously, dear wife to be, please be kept chaste. In every aspect.



My birthday just passed last week, and it was splendid (: I'm blessed with really wonderful friends.

So, I'm 23 now. I feel it. Societal pressures and responsibilities are eagerly edging in, looming over the gate of 26. It's not here yet but 3 years will be fast. After that, I need to get employed, work 3-4 years before I be financially stable enough for marriage. And to get married I need to date at least 3 years first so that means ideally I should get attached at 26 to get married at 30.

I told a friend and she says "gosh you guys really like to plan things out". Really? I thought girls should tend to worry more.


Honestly, there are only two things in life that stress me out, 1) career and 2) marriage. I just feel that they are the two essential things I need in life, besides God and family of course. And it bugs me much because I have none of them now. I really dislike the feeling of not being in control, some complex I have. Sometimes I don't understand myself, how come academics and exams don't bug me at all, when they ultimately affect (1). Or rather how come I find it so hard to entrust these two areas to God.



I've been exploring song writing recently, wrote two songs (: I will start uploading videos onto youtube soon I guess. As in like after exams.



Obviously, I am getting incoherently gibberish, so I will end here. And my work is nowhere near complete.

So. Good night friend (: Nice to have you around. You are very very much appreciated.

Just saying!